The Deep Stuff - Cable Guy/Family Sucks/The Long Kiss Goodnight .
Well what an interesting day it has been. I don't even know where to start. I ended up taking the day off today. I had to wait for the cable guy to come fix my cable (dang I missed TV) then went to go meet an important figure in my life who stood me up again. I don't think that I am ready to cover that whole "scene" yet. I will save that disappointment and crushing family scene for another day. Luckily last night and the rest of the day were all so quite positive that after sulking for an hour it seems less emotionally brutal.
A friend of mine took very good care of me last night. He made me feel comfortable and shared thoughts and history and gave me trust which allowed me to be more relaxed and comfortable with him and myself. That gift brings many others. It was nice to feel sensual and physically connected while feeling safe at the same time. It has been a long time. The flashbacks of last night still waft in my mind and make me smile. My mind's eye sees things differently today. Much more calm and leveled out with the stresses of the big picture seeming not as consequential and more just a part of life. I know that doesn't make sense to anyone but me but oh well it makes me smile.
The rest of the day will be spent running around here there and everywhere but my mind will be somewhere else. My Aunt's birthday, my apartment, errands and finally back to my housesitting gig. Lots of quality time snuggling with the dogs.
Till next time.
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